Monday, September 13, 2010


"My temporal needs--decorating my house or hitting a certain weight or having things, whatever they are--will never be enough, I will always wish for more. The duty is to accept what I have now, with a heart stuffed of happiness and gratitude. What I have, or what I am right now is perfectly suited for right now. It is 'the best.' "

-words from Cjane... found here.

Man I needed this today. Sometimes I find myself nit-picking at my life. Finding all it's faults, and wants, and more wants. Last night I was doing some major nit-picking and it got pretty ugly. I felt ugly... inside and out.

I was wanting a nice big house with nice new furniture, a nice well manicured yard without weeds growing from every corner.
I wanted to have nice new clothes to dress a nice flat perfect tummy and nice toned legs to go with it.
I wanted all the car troubles to disappear, and to have a nice organized garage to put those cars in.
I wanted a nice new bathroom with a big beautiful jetted tub, and beautiful counters that never get messy.

ya I was wanting the works.

Then I read this today, and realized I DO have the works. I have a wonderful husband who loves me and accepts my faults. I have two beautiful daughters who are healthy and happy and need me. I have food to give them, and am able to meet their needs. I have things, and I've realized it isn't "things" that make life enjoyable. It's how we live and serve, and love others.... as well as ourselves.

So, today I am making a toast to accept the "now" and enjoy it as much as possible.

cheers :)


Devrie Pettit said...

Thanks. I needed that too. I am so the same way...always wishing, when in fact I really do have everything I need. I have to say though, you look a heck of a lot better than me!! Just go to the state fair, and I promise, you WILL feel much better about yourself!! Ha, ha.

Shawna Wilson said...

Haha!! So funny you say that because I think we are going tomorrow!! ya... the people that come out of the wood works for that definitely will give me a self esteem boost!

ericksonslc said...

Shawna You are growing up so much. I love your insight to how we all feel. You are beautiful inside and out even when you have a case of the Wants.