Friday, November 4, 2011

Thankful for Guardian Angels

November 4th.
This is the second year we see this date and remember so much.
The leaves on the ground, the chill in the air, the ever changing autumn skies. They all remind me of this day.

It's a rare thing to see life's broader picture. I never knew my Dad's passing would or could ever make sense. He was so healthy, so young, so strong, my Dad. Why did he have to be taken away from our family here on earth?

Now I see a glimpse of why. Tenley is so young, so strong, and in a short time she will be healthy again. She has pieces of my Dad in her appearance as well as in her spirit. I see it. I know my Dad is with her constantly. If he was given the chance to stay here on earth, but in return could risk seeing Tenley leave it in two short years, there is no way he would take that risk. He wouldn't have given it a second thought.

It makes sense why she has been doing so well through her first round of chemo. Perfect sense. I'm not saying we will never have hard sick days, but I have peace in my heart knowing during those days she will have my Dad and other angels by her side. Helping her in ways only heaven can.

I will never forget the love, service, prayers, and fasting that were offered to me and my family two years ago. It is all too familiar as we go through it now. It warms my heart and I often think of this scripture as I have seen it come to life...

Mosiah 2:17 And behold, I tell you these things that ye may learn wisdom; that ye may learn that when ye are in the service of your fellow beings ye are only in the service of your God.

I have seen the hand of God through so many. It is an amazing thing to see. I know as each of us face trials throughout this lifetime, through prayer and an open heart we can all see this beautiful act. It is a part of our plan being here on earth. He provides miracles through each of us as we listen to the spirit and follow it's promptings. Everyone at one time or another will face life changing trials, but through the atonement we can face them and come out stronger than ever. I know this to be true.

These words from Joseph Wirthlin describe it perfectly...
"The dial on the wheel of sorrow eventually points to each of us. At one time or another, everyone must experience sorrow. No one is exempt... learning to endure times of disappointment, suffering, and sorrow is part of our on-the-job training. These experiences, while often difficult to bear at one time, are precisely the kinds of experiences that stretch our understanding, build our character, and increase our compassion for others... The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with years of rejoicing and gratitude."

As this month begins and we celebrate Thanksgiving, I find my heart ever so thankful for His plan. I know He oversee's everything and when we don't understand the why's and the heartache we face today, He does. He wants us to be happy, to find joy in this life.

Today I find joy in my guardian angel. The one who has sent us many miracles and blessings.
Thank you Dad.
I love you.


Mary said...

I am so thankful for the beautiful woman that you are. I, you mother, am constantly learning from you. I love you sweet Shawna and I know that dad is whispering, "stay strong, I love you Snoop." Unregi

Abe and Lisa said...

Tenley really does have the best guardian angel! We're praying for you guys. And I really loved the quote you included from Elder Wirthlin ... it's good to remind ourselves that we decided on our own to come to earth and to go through this mortal journey and that when life gets tough to remember that our brother gave his life for us and that if we only hold on tight enough we can return to live with our Heavenly Father, where your Dad is now. Love you and your fam!!

Erin said...

Just thinking and praying for your cute baby girl!!.. I love the quote you used from my grandpa. it is such a good one and so so true!! you are all in my prayers

Keyonna said...

Shawna, I cry every time I read your blog. Your strength and positive attitude are such an inspiration. Thank you for your amazing example. We are sending lots of prayers and love your way!

Todd and Jenn said...

Wishing much love to your family today and everyday. I know that your guardian angel will be with you. Amazing how those we love continue to bless us after they've gone.

AmberLou said...

Shawna... you always bring me to tears with your beautiful words! What a lovely image...your dad as Tenley's guardian angel... it is so true and nice to know there are others watching over us on the other side! :)